Hey hey, guys, gals, and in between pals! Long time no...type. I'm sorry for my extended absence on here and on the website. I want to do so many things, but I'm also going through a lot. I wanted to sit down today to explain what's been going on and what will be happening from here.
I've been going through an extended period of depression which was preceded by a manic spike in which I made some very rash and unsafe decisions financially. My depression and selfish behavior over the last couple of years have driven all 3 of my romantic partners away. This has greatly intensified my depression.
It got so bad, I hospitalized myself at the beginning of August. I stayed for 6 days and would have stayed longer if they had allowed me to do so. I'm very not okay emotionally and mentally.
Physically, I've been letting the depression get to me. I've felt a gnawing emptiness since the breakups began and I've definitely tried to fill that void with food. I want to go for walks or make a workout routine, but it's often hard to see the point when I'm in this kind of headspace. Getting anything started is difficult.
I wanted to give you more videos this year, but my ex was the one doing my editing and now I have to figure everything out on my own. I am working on clip compilations of my Twitch streams, but the going is slow. It's sometimes very hard for me to watch myself stumble through the process. I'd get someone new, but I don't know where to look and I don't have money to pay them.
Speaking of money, I'm not certain we'll be able to keep the website after next January. My funds haven't turned out the way expected and I just don't know if we'll make it to about $180 to pay fees and such. I have about $70 right now. I've had to stop subbing on Twitch to ensure we're making any money. I do have a donation goal happening on Twitch to raise $200 to keep the website. I will be adding what I already have to the total and the rest of the year's Patreon dollars will get added as they come in.
Let's talk about the website. I want to keep it as it is a good central hub for all of my content. However, I haven't been using it nearly at all this past year. I am working on changing that for the remainder of the year. I am putting together highlight reels for Twitch streams which I will post here before posting it publicly on YouTube. I am going to be doing an overhaul of the site to put things where they properly go and plan where our next content will be.
Speaking of which, my plans going forward are slow but hopefully steady. The site will be getting at least one post a week which could include an original video, my monthly highlight reel, a new chapter, or a drawing! I will be getting everything planned and will be making several announcements on October 1st, 2021 during our first official Fan Friday! This will be a longer stream where we chill, play games, watch clips, and just, in general, have a good time.
Thank you for being able and willing to be here no matter if you're a patron or just a follower. My hope is to give you some love in the coming months.
I hope you enjoy the show!
~ Chance/Synth
